Conversations with a 2 year old

"Hi Mommy"
"Hi Lillybug what are you doing?"
"Playing with Gacie"
"And what are you Playing?"
"Playing with Toys"
"And what is daddy doing?"
"Daddy is taking a Nap"
"Oh really? Hummm"

**Its good to have tattle tales sometimes. He denighs that he was asleep. But Lilly knows the truth.**

Update on my mom

So, my mom had surgary and they took out the cancer and took two Lymphnoids. The doctor said everything looked Great. Phew. Then last friday they told her that they need to take a little more tissue. So, Yesterday (tuesday) she went back in and they took a little more. Cleaned it up a bit and she is home veggin out. Actualy, I just called her and she is a little tired but stir crazy. I am just glad that all is well.

****Thanks to everyone that has kept her in their prayers and thoughts.****

Conversation with a 4 Year old

"Gracie, I told you not to play with mommys things. You need to go to your room for time out."
"Mommy, I don't think Heavenly Father wants you to put me in time out."
"Oh REALLLLY?"
"Yeah, really. Heavenly Father ISSS My Father in Heaven. And he wouldn't want me to go to time out. He loves me."
"Honey, I love you too. And Heavenly Father sent you to me to take care of you and to put you in time out when you are naughty. So, go to your room for time out."
**Long Pause**
"Mommy?"
"What Grace!!"
"I know that Jesus wouldn't want you to put me in time out either."

Needless to say, she went to time out.

Puppies at the Park - requested

***I have to apologize a head of time..there are a lot of doggie pictures here. I have had people asking "where are the puppies and the park pictures?" Well as requested, here they are.***

Lilly always loves to get in the middle of the doggie Pile.

Wilbur with his one Blue eye and one Black eye..what a cutie..He is tired.

Lilly with all 4 dogs: Clyde (red collar) Roxie (purple) Wilbur (all white) and
Ali (multi colored collar)

This is how the puppies played most of the day. (Clyde, Wilbur and Ali)

WWF Puppy Smackdown

Lilly and Abbie Playing

They were getting pretty tired until they saw mommy just laying there.

Lilly looking cool with her aunt Kristi

Clyde, Roxie and Wilbur

No shoe scootering (is that a word?) She gets the no shoe thing from her mom

Clyde, Wilbur and Ali

Clyde, Wilbur and Ali

Best Friends

This last week my heart seems so sentimental. Whether its looking at baby pictures of my girls. Remembering their first cries, laughs, crawls, walks and runs. Hanging out on a Saturday with family just so our puppies can play together. Understanding the pleasure of knowing that my family will be together for ever. Taking care of my sick husband and praying so hard that he get better soon because Its hard to do things without him. Stumbling upon my old mission pictures and journals and remember what faith I had so many years ago. Finding lost love in a letter. Or maybe its realizing just how special true friends ship is. All so sentimental to me.
In all my life I have come to know and love 3 best friends. OH don't get me wrong, I have many friends. All just as close and dear to my heart. But, I have 3 that I can truly call best. The first is my best friend Jill. I was watching an episode of Sex in the City where the lead, Carrie Bradshaw, was moving to Paris to be with the "love of her life". And leaving behind 3 special friends. I couldn't help but cry as they said their good-bye. I too, lost a friend to love. My sweet friend Jill left the big city of Salt Lake to be with the Love of her life in the Romantic???? City of Dover Delaware. Even though Dover has no Efel tower, no Gaston Leroux, and Palais des papes. They do speak a different language, Play Rugby and have they yummiest Delaware Blue Crab. As I watched this episode I missed my friend so much. I remember the phone call I received about 2 weeks after she got to Delaware. I believe it was over washing dishes we talked. She had said how different it was there. She was home sick and she was telling me how different everything was. Their ways were different even how they drove was different. I remember wanting to cry and begging her to come home...but I knew that I lost to her love. Dover was and is where she should be. Now so many years later, Jill has fit right into the Life of Delaware. She has picked up the Language, the culture, the beauty of Dover. Even starting her own business in which I am so proud of her. Do I still miss my friend?? TERRIBLY. But I want her to be happy more. I know that I can still call her when I need a shoulder to cry on, or if she needs to pick out the proper color for her store sign or when we just need to talk to someone that understands all my weird ways. I miss our long talks, our eating outs, bowling and people watching. Besos mi amiga"la". I miss you!
My other best friend is my sweet and loving husband. I often think of what my life would have been like if I just stayed a single mom and tried to do everything for Gracie. What would happen if I didn't get married..if I didn't meet Blake. The thought makes my tummy hurt. I couldn't even think of not having him in my life. (Nor Emily and Lilly.) Not having him get up in the middle of the night to get the baby a bottle so I can sleep even when we both worked the next day. He is my best friend. I tell him EVERYTHING. I talk to him 10 times a day. I miss him when he is gone and I can't wait for him to get home. I know I haven't been the greatest and happiest of wives. I am so thankful for his Love and Patience. He hasn't giving up on me and I hope he never does. I am sorry you have been so sick, honey. I love you, my love. You are my best friend.
Last week, my mom was diagnosed with Breast cancer. Last week my life turned in a different direction. My mom, my very first best friend, having to have such a scary disease. The very thoughts i couldn't help go through my mind was, "What if I lost her to this." The tears seem to stream down my face more freely. I couldn't even fathom that thought of not having my mom in my life. My Daughter is named after her, I pattern (or at least i try) my life after hers. To have her faith, love and devotion to the Savior. My mom is so giving to everyone. I remember one time when I was very young probably 7...and I wanted a pair of knickers in the store (yes knickers) . At the time my parents couldn't afford such luxurious. So my mom stayed up all night and made me a pair with a matching vest mind you. It was rust colored. And the selfish child I was said to her in the morning, "I don't like this color...I wanted turquoise" That day has often haunted me. How could I be so selfish??? I have apologized since then. She doesn't even remember..but I forever will. She stayed up all night for me...to make me happy. My mom was always sacrificing. She would eat cold dinner because she was always serving her children and husband. I am grateful for her unconditional love. When I sat and told my parents of the poor choices I made and that I was going to have a baby my mom just loved me. Just loved me..!! She was there at nearly every doctor apt. She was there to cut the cord and she was the first to hold Marjorie Gracie. She was such a strength to me while I went through my repentance and she was there to pick me up when I just couldn't make it. How blessed I am to have my mom. She saw come back to the gospel, saw me get married in the temple, she saw Blake adopt Gracie and later be all sealed together in the temple. My life without my mom would not be much of a life. I asked her how she feels about this Cancer stuff and she says, "It's in the Lords hands." What faith. If I could be half the mom she is I would be the best Mom ever. I love you mom. My prayers are with you. Thanks for everything.

a Month in Review

Here are some pictures of the girls over the last month. They are getting so big I can't even believe it my self. Clyde is also getting to be a big boy. He loves to sleep with the kids. It just hit me that I really think he thinks the girls are his sisters. Clyde is a very sweet puppy.

Emily is starting to crawl. She gets up on her knees and just today started moving forward instead of in reverse. She also has her first top tooth. Lilly and Em have been slow getting their teeth in. They have all the symptoms for months but teeth just take forever to get in. Emily is so fun. She loves to laugh and her sisters. And if someone sneezes she giggles and giggles. What a ham.
Lilly loves to be a dog...what a nut burger.

This month we were so happy to have Grandma LaRae up for a few days. The girls just love her and were so happy to show off for her. Clyde (as you can tell) Loves her as well. We hope she will come up more often now that we have found the St. George shuttle. What a great thing. They pick you up in St. George and drive you up here for 55 bucks. Then when your ready to go home you call and get on their shuttle list and pay another 55 bucks and back home you go. You don't have to worry about driving. Perfect for My Mother-in-law.

Gracie playing with the puppies. They love to give her licks.

Here is Clyde. He is 28 pounds and is really tall and lean. Just today I was looking at him and he just doesn't look like a puppy any more. He is a sweet dog and its been good for Blake to have a new puppy to take care of. We still miss sweet Princess Molly. But, Clyde has really helped fill in that vacancy in Blakes heart.
Sorry for the long post of pictures.